A year ago today I had to say goodbye to my second son. Most people could not even imagine doing this once in a lifetime yet Tom and I have done it twice. The pain of that day never goes away. Holding Nathan, knowing we were not taking him home with us, broke my heart. I will never be the same. I will never recover from that heartbreak. Each day I learn to live in the world with the pain and heartache of losing my sons.
As painful as that day was and as painful as everyday since has been, today I will celebrate Nathan's life. Thanks to Jesus, our Savior, my son lives in heaven. I praise God that Nathan lives in heaven waiting for me to join him one day. Through my sorrows I have the hope of meeting him and spending eternity with him.
Today Tom and I will take the day and celebrate Nathan's life. We went to the Ann Arbor Arboretum to visit the tree planted in memory of Nathan and all the lost babies at U of M hospital this year. We spent our day giving thanks to God for our precious son. We gave thanks for the beauty He created in the Arboretum.
This is the tree tag for the tree planted for Nathan last month.
Here I am with the tree!
Here is Tom with the tree.
As we give thanks we look to the future. Tom and I do not know what God has planned for us and we do not know where to go from here. As we celebrate today, please keep Tom and me in your prayers. We need to feel God lead us to a decision for our family. We need God to show us the path He has planned for us. I want to know that Tom and I are on the path He has planned because His plan is far greater than mine.
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
Isaiah 55:8-9
Praise God for His faithfulness in giving us our gift!
